The last post i mentioned about chance and how it has helped us discover some of the inventions which made our life it is now. And i got to thank Esther for this , she really know her stuff , well there was one incident of chance which allowed us to have fantastic quick meal since its creation.The inspiration of microwave! read Esther's tag! unbelievable right? I'll update you the full story about it when i find something.
Well before i start i have to apologize for this post . Usually i would create the entry for you guys out there.But this time its a post about me. Its an incident that happened today....and an emotion which lasted for 2 years
Its a about girl and my feelings for her for 2 years now . She is a wonderful girl , her beauty only matched by her intelligence and soul . God really out did himself with her and i really got to thank him for being able to meet such great girl in my life.But here is the problem and my biggest fault , i blame himself for this but within all this time ...i have not made any move. i think I'm really a wimp for this but the reason why i couldn't tell my feelings to her is because she didn't feel the same way about me and that if do tell her about my feelings its might affect a church group she and i are in .
The point is that its been so long...and today something really struck me. i was sitting on a bench with my friends today and we were happily chatting, waiting for her (cos she had to pass something to one of my friends)...then she came ....and my god , though i seen her in her simple jeans and t-shirts many times before today she looked beautiful she just has glow about her ...
But though it was a pleasure seeing her today, it actually hurt too... because the first thing that went through my mind was that we both may very well never be together.Here is such a wonderful girl in front of me and god has to play a cruel trick to give only one sided love.
Well tell you the truth it hasn't been the first time. For about 3 months , every time i go talk to her or see her ... i get this feeling ,its like a new hole in my heart every time and salt rubbed on my old holes . i always tell myself that if she if worth it but i don't know how long i can hold anymore...hahahaha pretty ironic right ... kinda gives the expression " so good it hurts".
hhhmm to let her go or not .....
4:13 PM ; smile'
thePROFILE;
hey Aloysius here
currently slacking
and trying to figrure out
why fishball taste so good
so wish bert is here
to read this
theLOVE;
What i like?
lol,lots of stuff
but isnt it better
if u just ask me in person
-im an accepting person
and love new things
-got anything pls share
ideas,facts,feelings,opinion
you have it , shoot it
theHATE;
what i hate?
errr...i TRY not to hate things
theWISH;
wishlist?
haha i'll let u know
when i figure something
but a good start
-is to be a better person
-Less formal
-have fun
-connect with more ppl
-deepen what friendships i have
